This week was my first week back at work. Right now, I have to work full time and it is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. My first day back I was an emotional wreck. I know many other mommas out there have to experience the same thing. It's now Friday and while my heart still wants to be with my baby girl, I have some thoughts to share. I am thankful that I have a husband who watches our little girl during the day. He has loved spending more time with her. My ever so knowledgeable and insightful mom expressed the fact that this is time that they will get to bond together that they might not have had otherwise. We are so blessed that we have a friend in the neighborhood who is able to watch Kaylin during the time that my husband comes to work until I get home. She is a mom herself and knows a lot about soothing a grumpy child. She is gentle and sweet and sends me updates and pictures throughout the day.

Prior to going back to work: 
I went a little crazy with notes and trial runs. Apparently this is totally normal. Our babysitter was very understanding and fully expected me to call 20 times to check up on Kaylin my first day back to work. Even though she probably already knew everything I was telling her, it made me feel better to reiterate everything. I put everything important that I felt she needed to know in a notebook for easy reference. A couple of weeks before I started back I did mini trial runs with my hubby. I wanted to make sure that he was confident in his ability to soothe the baby and take care of her on his own. I went and got my hair done and made a few doctor's appointments just to get out of the house for a couple of hours. Even if I was home with him, if Kaylin cried, I would let him tend to her. That way he had to figure things out but I was nearby just in case.

Things to help me while I am at work: 
I have pictures posted EVERYWHERE in my office. It also helps when my husband and our babysitter sends me pictures. I call every couple of hours just to check in and they let me hear her sweet giggles and googoo-gaga's. Now, I just need to install a webcam on my office computer!

Bottom line is, it's not easy coming back to work full time. You have to do what's best for your family, even it means sacrificing in the beginning. It may be hard for me to handle, but if I know Kaylin is happy and well taken care of, I can get through it. The best part of my day is easily the second I walk through my door and get to see my precious daughter.